So I did it.
I graduated from my masters program. I am now in full possession of a Masters of Arts in European History. I wore the goofy black robes with the funny sleeves and the hood that no one could figure out put on (including my proffies) and kept choking me.
Now what the fuck am i going to do with it?
I have no idea. That's the scariest part of all. I did it. I completed my 2 year program in *shocker* 2 years. I passed all the classes. I did all the papers. I wrote the 100 pages thesis and survived the defense without crying. And now i have no idea what i am going to do with my life. Everything i've been doing for the last 2 years has been to get me here so that i could go on to get my PhD. Now that that won't be happening, I feel a little lost. I didn't really have a back-up plan. I always thought this was what i was supposed to be doing. So now i am trying to figure out my next move on a chessboard I really can't envision.
At least I am not alone. I have friends who are doing the same thing. I have friends that still haven't finished the program. I have people who are pulling for me to succeed. So succeed I must.
I guess its time to start applying for jobs (don't be confused, i really already have)
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2 comments:
What you're going through is very similar to what many twenty somethings are going through. I know that probably doesn't make you feel better - but it's true. As twenty somethings, we go through years and years of school in a very structured environment with everything laid out for us, and then once we graduate, it's like we're pushed out into the "real world" without a life jacket. It can be really tough to keep our heads above water. I wish you luck in figuring out your next step, and if you ever need any support in doing so, don't hesitate to reach out. I have a great blog dedicated to twenty something women who are tryng to figure it all out! Wishing you well!
Thank you for sharing your story. If you already decided to pursue you PHD, then find a way to do it. The first thing is we decide then we carry it through. I know you already know what you wanted. The remaining part is your action to achieve it.
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